blissful

had class till tuesday and the rest of the week off from college. it's so nice to have time to breathe again. how i've spent my longed break? with sleeping, eating and more sleeping. not a single glance at my notes and revision kits. i'm starting to feel guilt. maybe just a tiny part of me. oh well, it'll pass. :P

it's been so long since i had a peaceful and longggg sleep. my favourite hobby - sleeping till noon and skipping breakfast altogether. good way of keeping diet i would say. people say the more you sleep the more tired you get. it's sorta true i guess. but i don't really care. it's about time i get some sleep-debt cleared. may as well get the most out of it. pretty sure sleep won't be my main priority for the coming months. it'll all be study study study study and maybe well, yeah, study.

finals are just looming ahead. it's terrifying to think of what-if i failed. obviously i'd be stuck in CAT for another year. with strangers. and the same lecturers, maybe, maybe not. and the same freaking annoying paper. ughhh scary thought. erase that.

i want to proceed to acca with all of you. it's truly great that i've get to known you guys. a blessing really. so let's continue this journey together alright? :)

fairytale gone bad

kinda disturbing isn't it. can't imagine fairytale princesses looking like this. i'd have nightmares looking at them.

like finally

MOCK IS OVERRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!!

it's finally finish and done with. my past week was stress, crazy, sleepy and tired all rolled into one. haven't been sleeping well for days. it's either falling asleep with my notes in hand or sleeping at wee hours in the morning. i need my 12 hours sleep. or maybe i should make it 24. i've gotta catch up on my sleep.

with mock done i've come to realize that i've less than 2 months left till the real thing. reality hit. gosh. time is not just flying by. it's rocketing by. goodness. i think 'time' needs to chill out. we're almost coming to an end of 2009. everything is just speeding by. it's kinda scary.

p/s: i'm turning 20 in 6 months time. omg. oldddddd.

in peace

i saw this old man while taking the lrt today. somehow he reminds me of my grandfather who passed away last year. i sorta got teary eyed while looking at him. i remembered the times i had with my grandpa.

him sneaking me into his room to give me extra money for school.

him buying my favourite 'paper-wrapped chicken'.

him telling us stories of his younger days.

him listening to the hakka radio channel that i don't understand a word of.

him after the heart surgery.

him giving up smoking.

his smiley face when we go visit.

his funeral.

i wasn't there when he was admitted into the hospital. he didn't get to see him until his last breath. i'll always feel a pang of guilt when i think of that. learn to appreciate what you have. it might be too late later.

miss you, grandpa.

wrong color

i'm now having braces. and it's PINK!! not really this pink. but a more reddish pink. goodness. my friends that knew about it were like yerrr why pink de. -.- don't ask me why. i didn't getta choose what color i want. government hospital. what you expect.

i have to watch what i eat. no sticky stuff. no hard stuff. brush my teeth after every meal. bla bla bla. well at least i'd slim down. i'd better. not sure how long i have to put it on. 1 or 2 years at least. oh well, may as well start getting used to it. sighs.

hallelujah - kate voegele

Well I've heard there was a secret chord

David played and it pleased the Lord
But you don't really care for music, do ya?
Well it goes like this:
The fourth, the fifth, the minor fall and the major lift
The baffled king composing Hallelujah

Hallelujah, Hallelujah, Hallelujah, Hallelujah

Well your fatih was strong but you needed proof
You saw her bathing on the roof
Her beauty and the moonlight overthrew you
She tied you to her kitchen chair
She broke your throne, she cut your hair
And from your lips she drew the Hallelujah

Hallelujah, Hallelujah, Hallelujah, Hallelujah

Oh baby I have been here before
I've seen this room and I've walked this floor
You know I used to live alone before I knew you
And I've seen your flag on the marble arch
And love is not a victory march
It's a cold and it's a broken Hallelujah

Hallelujah, Hallelujah, Hallelujah, Hallelujah

Well there was a time when you let me know
What's really going on below
But now you never show that to me do you
And remember when I moved in you
The holy dove was moving too
And every breath we drew was Hallelujah

Hallelujah, Hallelujah, Hallelujah, Hallelujah

Well maybe there is a God above
But all I've ever learned from love
Was how to shoot somebody who outdrew you
And it's not a cry you that hear at night
It's not somebody who's seen the light
It's a cold and it's a broken Hallelujah

Hallelujah, Hallelujah, Hallelujah, Hallelu
Hallelujah, Hallelujah, Hallelujah, Hallelujah

cabut-ed again

last wednesday i went to the dentist again to extract the 2 remaining teeth. somehow the process was not as what i remembered. the anaesthetic jab sting a lil more this time. just glad that i'm done with the extraction part. next up is the binding of braces. in 2 weeks time. *gulps*

the doctor put in 8 rubber band kinda thing in on the same day. just before the extraction. 4 for each side. up and down. it's supposed to help create some gap in between my teeth for the braces. but it's very uncomfortable. when the the gap is big enough the rubber will fall off.

i can't eat hard stuff. it'll only push the rubber into my gums even more. which will then cause more pain. sobs. being the crybaby i am, i'm stuck with what people call baby food. soft and easy to be swallowed.

porridge, mushroom soup and mash potato were my lunch and dinner for the past few days. i even made my own mash potato out of scratch. much cheaper then bought. RM2+ worth of potatoes can be my meal for the whole day. quite easy actually. so don't be too shocked to find out i can actually cook. :P

i miss eating rice and noodles and sweet sour pork and french fries and.... it's endless.

to everyone....

happy mooncake/lantern festival~~ :D

as a kid, i used to love this day of the year. i mean, lanterns and candles? it's fun to watch those pretty candlelights burn in the dark. though the cleaning up is gonna be a little messy. burnt candles here and there. and the lanterns!! we used to play with those paper made lanterns. it's kinda troublesome to light them and we always end up burning them. i have no idea how many lanterns i've burnt/destroyed over the years of my childhood. not forgetting my siblings share too.

then my parents bought us lanterns that can be lit with batteries. some come with songs too. you just switch on and it'll sing for you. fuyoh. so modern. haha. no more burnt lanterns from then on.

but now, we no longer celebrate this day like we used to. no more lanterns. and sometimes no mooncake even. do you know they cost a bomb these days. freaking expensive. tsk tsk. i missed those days where we would go walking around the neighborhood with lanterns lighting our path. it was much safer last time. and i was a kid. things like this excites me. not any more i guess.